I’m incredibly jealous when it comes to relationships. I don’t know if anyone will ever be able to stand how jealous I am. I need constant reassurance that I am still wanted, and that there is no one else in the picture. This is literally going to ruin all my chances at finding a happy relationship with someone. *sigh*
I’m feeling quite unfulfilled with my life right now. I feel like I’m void of ambition and passion. I don’t know where those two elements of my character have gone, but they are not currently with me. I used to look forward to college and the great opportunities this leap forward would encompass, but I just feel like I’ve wasted so much time.
I want him to liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee meeee pls
So, I’ve been working out a lot this whole week, and I haven’t really lost wright. However, I have also been having lots of protein and working on my legs and arms, so it could be muscle gain? Idk?
I didn’t go to the gym yesterday, but I went for a morning walk. I went out with my sister and my eating was so so so so bad.
I wasn’t even planning on going to yeah gym today, but my sister asked me to go with her, so I did. I ran 3 miles and feel pretty good about that. Also, I got a better app to keep track of calories and exercise and all that jazz, just so I can be more aware of what I’m doing right/wrong. I just want to lose like 10 pounds.
I have a HUGE crush on a guy right now and it feels really good to have a crush. And this time it’s kind of different. I hadn’t noticed this, but I hadn’t had a crush on someone for a very long time that hadn’t developed after the person tried to pursue me? If that makes sense. I hadn’t developed such a huge crush for someone random. Anyway, he just agh. He’s smart, he is a writer, he’s dorky and cute and tall and tanned and has the cutest smile ever. Agh I want to cuddle his face.